I have been drinking a lot on the weekends, and once I start, I can't stop. I know it is stupid to drink when I am related to an alcoholic and saw how it can affect a person and those around them but I can't help it. I feel like I could drink myself into a coma.
Sounds pretty unhealthy sweetie. Seems this will only lead to more anger and depression.
It would be great if our parents were who we wanted them to be. Thing is we have no idea what is in the heart and mind of another person. I dont think your father did this to you, I think he just did it . he will have to live with it.
Maybe focus on yourself, and your own happiness and coming to terms with this drinking that you are doing, you are young and have your whole life ahead of you, drinking yourself into a coma will get in the way of your being your best self.