I guess aliha that it's hard to be personal when we don't know you. Each of us can only share what has worked for us.
I was a daily blackout drinker when I found SR and on the verge of losing it all...my marriage, my family, my job. I was scared and anxious and suicidal. There was something about this place that drew me in. I posted every day and built up a support network of people I grew to call my friends.
I am 17 months sober now and I had drunk all my adult life. Miracles happen here.
Give it some time and read other people's stories. Lots of good stuff going on x