Aiko, it is natural to have a hard time thinking about 'forever'. It took me a while to grasp that, and it really was something I struggled with early on. Looking back, all I can say is take it one day at a time. Don't drink today and eventually your mind will start to get a handle on forever. I have to say that now, almost a year, I have accepted that I will never ever drink again. At the beginning, there was now way that could really sink in. I really let it get to me and I wasted a lot of time worrying about it. Be patient and seriously just try to take it a day at a time, one struggle at a time, one craving at a time and you will get there. Good luck and stay close to SR.