It has to be the 7th...
I need to digest it that I have to stop fully.
I need time... and I will be 9 days walking 133 km in the country side... perfect.
I promised the 7th nothing will happen in this two weeks I am careful.
at the same time I give myself white card to do what I want two weeks and that will be it.
I got a book to read AVRT, I got the AA book online.
I promised I was going to go to AA, I am not happy to go really... but they will go mad If I pull back...
I go to the psychiatrist 30th to review my meds...
am getting tools for the D day...
Have to think what I will be repeating in my head not to do things... when it starts...
I hear this Never again... and this One day thing...
I am reading a lot in SR and learning a lot from the members...
This time has to work!!!!!!!