Thank you so much for this post. This line "Grief has become such an ingrained part of my life, that I forgot how to live." resonated with me in a huge way. I somewhat recently broke up with an addict, and I've been trying very hard to refocus on myself and let go of him, but despite the fact that I made a ballsy move and took off accross the world (literally) I still find myself thinking about him, wondering what he's doing, how he's feeling, who he's with etc. It's like my life, this new life that has nothing to do with him, is still somehow all about him. Anyways, reading what you wrote was very inspiring to me.