In AA it's said the process of picking up the first drink often starts long before picking up. We have to watch different aspects and be aware of the different triggers that may cause us to pick up. People have a natural big Built in forgetter. The letters of HALT are a quick self inventory of things to watch out for. Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired either alone or mixed together. Yes alcohol is certainly cunning, baffling and cunning. After many years I still remind myself that I'm an alcoholic and when I might wonder what a new drink tastes like I need also to think that I cannot drink in safety today and stop romanticizing what is certainly unhealthy for me. BE WELL