Originally Posted by
smac2166 
13- thanks. I have been working on calming techniques when I cant slow down esp my mind. My concern is refinding joy in something. I sit on my couch all the time and do nothing. Getting out of the house is so hard. I have 2 speeds hyper and dead still.
Maybe you are just really really tired after all you have been through. I know I am. The emotional flatness is also something I notice more sober.
I was really glad to see your posts. It is so hard to do this alone.
Sometimes I think I drank for the last 10 years just to feel anything. Sometimes I drank to not feel when I was much younger. It isn't easy to find a happy medium, but at least we are in the game and trying.