Hey Alpha.
Great narrative.
Nothing bad ever comes from coming clean. Recovery is only painful when you're doing it well, and the road to hell is paved with bad excuses.
It's like that Kubler-Ross thing with the stages of grief. We all make the mistake of bargaining with our drinking...until it takes complete control of our assets.
Sobriety is the time when we start paying back everything that we borrowed from our future.
Keep on doing what you're doing.