Originally Posted by
jade123 
I'm under no delusions that I can have just one. I know I can't. One drink might relax others but one drink causes my anxiety to go off the charts and makes my skin crawl. It makes me irritable and miserable to have one or two or three and then stop. I'd rather be sober. Yet I struggle with sobriety.
That sounds about right. One drink makes me feel slow, dumb, and anxious. Same with two or three or four on up to the point where I'm so bombed, the only thing I can do is pass out. And then morning comes and I feel like death, vow to never drink again, and end up at the liquor store when I get off work.
Vicious cycle.