Hi Becki,
I think many here have had that same feeling at the end of a work day. I hope that your evening will be a peaceful one and that you can enjoy your time with your children and your furbabies.
What do you think you want to do? I know that sounds like a trite question, but it seems clear that your husband is not going to change any time soon.
Let's say, for example, he decided this very evening to start going to some sort out-patient meetings for recovery? What if he kept it up for the rest of his life? Would you ever be able to forgive him, to trust him, to enjoy his company again? I think that answers to those questions will give you a lot to think about.
Please take good care. Remember, not everything has to be solved today!