Hi TK, you aren't alone, and the idea of being able to drink like normal people sneaks up on everyone. I guess knowing that is part of the way to diffuse it. It is amazing how quickly our minds erase the pain, mess, horror, hangovers....Glad you are here, SR has helped me tremendously. Would you consider joining the October class, it is for people who are quitting this month. Just makes it a bit more personal.