I had many morning afters when I was drinking. Don't let alcohol trick you into thinking that if I drink today, at least I won't have to deal with my problems today. It is a lie. What's done is done. You can't change yesterday, but you can control today. It starts with not drinking today/tonight. Join the group of people in the October quitters thread. Hang close to this site. Get to AA, therapy. Whatever you think you need. Join the chat room. You have the power to change this. Many of us have. I am 16 months now and I drank daily till I passed out for many, many years. It can start today.