thank you so much for those words, they really were helpful. My wife and I have been together for 14 years so I cant the thought that I have blown it.
But you are right, I need to show her that I mean to stay sober and that is not going to happen overnight. The trouble I've made those promises before, and she has given me so many 'last chances' ...
She is coming to therapy in 2 days so we can talk about plan together. I just cant bear the thought of having let her down so badly again; i know I need to be positive about myself in order to get better, but I really hate myself right now. I dont know how to get over that hurdle , i cant help feeling my wife would be better off without me. I feel like im in a nightmare and dont know how i ended up here
