All I can say is that I feel you. About to submit my proposed parenting plan on Monday. Wanted to do it this past Monday, but took too long to get it all together. My ex wants 50/50 after only seeing our son when I need child care for the last two months (about 24 hours/week). He is so pissed because I want supervised visits. He is going to hate me if I serve him before he serves me. He thinks I'm trying to make him look evil. I'm just trying to protect my son (17 months) and be honest about his addiction and its risks. The worst part is that I still wish I could have a loving relationship with my X. We used to be so happy, but it was always codependent.