I think Mentium has said something quite important here. So I’m going to expand on it.
Perhaps sharing the two links below on a thread started by someone with 3 days might seem a little odd. Nevertheless here goes.
People who consider themselves to be in the rational and scientific camp should listen to what the cutting edge of modern physics is exposing to us right now about the nature of reality. One very interesting fellow is Peter Russell. He trained at Cambridge with Steven Hawking so he’s no lightweight. Here is a link
The Primacy of Consciousness - Peter Russell - Full Version - YouTube
There are a host of others. Here is a link to Anton Zeilinger (a prominent quantum physicist) speaking with the Dali Lama.
The Dalai Lama and Quantum Physics 1/6 - YouTube
You have to ask yourself why so many prominent physicists are taking a closer look at ‘spirituality’.
Keep a very broad definition of ‘higher power’. Investigate on your own and keep an open mind. If you do IMO, you can’t go wrong.