I notice I have become meeker and less willing to state my truths. I am more willing to back down and/or back off then I have ever been.
LMN, maybe you've just said all that you have to say and to say and don't feel a need to keep repeating yourself? Confrontation is not the answer and such an energy waster. Acceptance of whatever "is" is a quieter, stronger place to be,
Getting away has given you a chance to regain your balance and see this from a clearer perspective. Going back to face the decisions you must make is going to be difficult and emotional, but you are stronger now and wiser, and whatever unfolds, I know you can handle it with grace and courage.
You will be okay, honest you will. You are stronger and wiser than you feel right now but in the end your answers will come and you will be at peace with them. I promise.
Hugs