I am so sorry you are going through this and have been hurt so badly. You have a lot of great suggestions here, Story. I too was so depressed when my son was in his worst part of addiction. Even when he came to us and wanted help all we did was cry and cry and cry. Writing positives is huge, doing small things for yourself like yes, ice cream, baths, getting a massage, etc. Daily walks helped me tremendously. I look at the beautiful blue sky and thank God for the sunny days. I so appreciate the little things now. You have been dealt a huge blow and it will take time to come out of the fog..................but you will! Just do small things for yourself and you will slowly notice improvement. Hugs