I have struggled with alcohol for years. Sometimes under control, sometimes not. I tried AA years ago, but it is not really anonymous. And I cannot have that...I have to protect my employment. Plus I didn't like the "helpless" aspect. I drank wine because I liked it's effects, not because of a disease.
Fortunately, it was not to the point of having with drawls. Urges, yes. I have used AVRT and that resonates with me. I wish that I had read those books years ago. I am so much more clear headed and sleeping like a baby. My confidence and serenity has returned.
Am I problem free? No, but is anyone. I have gained so much from reading the posts here and appreciate all of you with similar struggles. Thank you for that. And keep posting! I need to hear about your sobriety without AA meetings! I am more of a loner and do not like to "out myself" in public.
Thanks for "listening".
