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Old 09-30-2013, 02:28 PM
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Acheleus
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Surrender

So I am going to have to check in on here every day. Going to a meeting tonight, found a sponsor yesterday, and I am going to the doctor tomorrow. I'm not sure what is happening to me but I want to be sober more than I want to be drunk, and I never want to black out again and forget what I am doing. All I want is defense against alcohol, so I am going to teach, like I did today, and go to class, and finish my degree but I am going to just have to make a support group in AA because I don't have anyone else in this town to talk to. My mind is so scrambled with stress and fatigue, I cannot think because I am so tired of school, and all I want is a chance to relax. I wish I could drop out of school and go to a treatment center for 90 days, but I am going to have to do this with SR, AA, my sponsor, and self-discipline. I'm not going back to drinking.
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