majeebix, my condolenses for your loss. although not from alcoholism, my mother passed away on the 13th. the grief process can and will be a rollercoaster of emotions. yes, it will get easier as long as you let the grieving happen.
I owld highly encourage you to look for some support groups locally or on the net. it has helped me to have people that have gone through it and understand what im goin through to talk/type to.