Hi, Ashamedof, glad you found your way to SR. Have you considered Alanon to help you deal w/your AH? Here's a link to help you find a meeting:
http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/
Many here have found Alanon and SR to be a great combination; you may find the same. Here's a few recent threads on that topic:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...nderstand.html and
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...elt-great.html
Do you also visit the "Substance Abuse" forums here for your opiate issues? I know in this forum, we have a number of "double winners", who are A's themselves as well as having a friend, family member or spouse who is an A. I have to imagine you'd find similar situations in that area, too.
Also, would this be helpful to you?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html
Please do hang around and keep posting and reading--and I wish you strength in dealing w/your own addiction issues as well!