WTBH...ok..i have to say a this...your friends here get it....why are you fighting it? your avatar says "want to be healthy" keep looking at that, and be calm about it...
please dont be defensive here...really look at what they are saying...and hey, maybe try it...they are only trying to help...
please breath...and calm and DONT ENGAGE...i am an re actor too...we must THING! and count to 20 and remember our actions and behaviours...
with much love..your friend(s') here at SR