Just keep your eyes on the prize for now. Give yourself the permission to play the Scarlett O'Hara role..."I'll think about that tomorrow". Difficult issues from the past will still be there for you to address and deal with in six months or more, when you've got more sober time under your belt, and more clarity to deal with these things. Whether you use AA or not, they have some great sayings, one of which is "First Things First". First secure your sobriety! The rest will be waiting for you...or not! Sometimes after the lights are turned on the things we see as the monsters in the closet are just a pile of clothes after all.