police called me....
An officer from 2 states away called my cell last night. I knew it was about my stbxah because it was from the state he ran off to with his addict girlfriend. I have had these calls numerous times in the past and they always sent me into codie panic mode. This time was different. I asked the officer if my husband was dead. He said no. I told him I didnt want to be involved, gave him father in laws number and asked that he not call me again. Then i sat and let it sink in. He could be hurt, in jail, etc and I really didnt care. My only thought was that I had better find out if I am still liable if he hurts someone since our divorce isnt final. I turned my phone off and slept with out a problem, something I never could have done while with him in the same situation. I feel like a big part of me accepted that it is over and that is for the best last night. My entire being seemed to breathe a sigh of relief. Is this what the beginning of recovery feels like?