LightInside---Maybe I can help you a little bit on the perspective part......Your brain is stubbornly hanging onto a fantasy of what you WANTED yoour relationship to look like--to be. However, real life demands that we live in reality--not fantasy.
Your happiness will come from the inside of you and not from hitching your star to an active alcoholic. What you call love will not change him. His true love is alcohol. Love is not enough, anyway--most all of us here on SR have l oved ou r alcoholic at some point.
You need to complete your grieving process--it has only been two months. We all grieve the loss of a dream. Loss feels like loss!! This is normal--but, it will pass.
When you get on with a program for yourself--you will feel sooo much better.
dandylion