Originally Posted by
asimplelife I am haunted by him whispering to me, years ago, in bed, drunk, "Please, save me. Help me, love." My guilt is overwhelming. I could not save him.
Sweetie, let go of the unrealistic guilt. Please know he was never yours to save ~ saving is an inside job ~ something that happens between an individual and their HP.
I know you are hurting ~ this disease hurts not only the person that has it, but all those around ~
He may or may not choose recovery - but you can do what is healthy for you.
You will need the time to grief and feel the pain of the loss, but when you are ready ~ you can find healing and a life for yourself
you deserve the chance to be happy, joyous and free too
pink hugs