Thank you everyone for the support! I am a grown man sitting here in tears because I'm happy and relieved to speak with people who know what I'm going through.
I've looked into AA and found where the meetings are in my area and I need to set a date to go. I also need to cancel a camping trip with friends this weekend because I can't go. I don't care what people say or feel about me quitting, but I am in no shape to be around that right now.
It's going to be so hard to have a social life, as everything revolves around drinking. It's not going to be easy.