Thank you from my heart for all the advices. Right now I am working in answering those questions of why I made the decisions I made, because I really want to work in whatever it was that triggered in me that relationship.
I am looking for the Kubler Ross model, it is interesting to have more information about what you may have to go through. And I know it will continue being difficult for some time, but time will also help with it.
Tomorrow I start counseling with a person close to me, so I am sure all of that will help me get through all this bad feelings that some times just get overwhelming.
Thanks again, it is good to hear advice from people that have gone through similar things. Hugs.