24 Hours
Hello,
I have been sober for 24 hours. I am very pleased and scared at the same time.
My drinking got out of control in the past 6-8 months due to severe anxiety. I refused to take anti-depressants because of the horrible side effects...so I self medicated with wine...what was I thinking!
For the past 6-8 months I've been drinking a bottle a day...starting at noon. Then I was concerned about my breath so on the days when my anxiety was really bad I would drink vodka...for breakfast.
I am also a smoker...a pack a day.
I realized that alcohol + nicotine are destroying my health and are the complete opposite as a medication for anxiety!
I need help please.
In the last week I had two blackouts...at dinner time. I can't remember for the life of me if I had dinner or not on those days.
And for the past 5 days I've been having panic attacks so bad that kept me awake all night. I am in a constant state of panic during the days.
I am scared. I am a mom to a beautiful 6 year old boy, I am married to a very good man...I need to get my life together!
I would really appreciate some advice. I am very scared.
Thank you for listening.
Patricia