PJ - I actually had my greatest urge yesterday. In fact called my sponsor and we spoke for roughly an hour. We related and talking out loud, I was able to hear what I was saying, which caused my brain to understand the absurdity of the adiction.
I am on day 10 - swam 800M in the pool this AM and feel good. Nights are the worst. I see that my life will never be the same and that makes me sad. as I really enjoyed it. I did not loose anything house, job, marriage. I was highly functional but within those infrequent dark moments I felt I was playing Russian roulette, which is why I stopped.