Welcome Paddler, you're in the right place - I tried to control my drinking initially too - it really didn't work and I'm now on day 40
. I feel like I am coming out of a really thick fog finally - initially I was so tired to my bones, couldn't sleep / function. My mood swings and emotions were all over the shop but with each day, I feel like I am reclaiming my life back, becoming a better/nicer/ more patient version of my former self and I enjoy spending time with my kids again whereas before it was such a chore as I was either hungover or craving a drink.
It does get easier with time (which unfortunately you can't rush) - stick with it - keep posting. You can do this
Good luck to you
xxxxxx