Thank you so much NW! I am so glad you were able to not go down with the ship! I like that idea of using the energy to create a nice life for myself! I don't have very much longer, I think. I have MS that for the past few years has caused me to decline rapidly both physically and mentally (before I got this I thought MS meant you end up in a wheelchair...now I know it's also about hours where you can't get out of bed due to fatigue and about lesions in the brain and atrophy of the brain so that when you get to where you can't use your legs or arms, or talk or swallow, you usually also have bad dementia as well.)
I've been told I have a 40% chance of being alive at age 60. I am 52 right now.
I feel I do need to row away from that sinking ship because my time left is not unlimited. I will never be healthier than I am right now, at this moment. Time's a wasting. No more Codie weepy mess allowed for me, I gotta kick myself when I start going that way again!