After having watched someone I love (my father) slowly kill himself with alcoholism, I can for sure say that alcoholism does suck. I am so sorry you are having to suffer that kind of pain and not be able to do anything about it. You feel so helpless especially when the person you love won't even listen to what you are saying its like talking to a brick wall and getting nowhere. Once again, I am so sorry as I have been there telling my father that we were going to be burying him soon and 8 days later we were.