What about a little excursion someplace outside and beautiful with your two sons? Take a picnic, enjoy nature, take some pictures of your kids laughing and playing.
There is much to be sad about, yes, and I, too, know the anniversaries and birthdays are so hard.
AND, there is much to be joyful about! You have rescued yourself from a bad marriage. You have freed your sons from repeating the childhood you had.
You are free to create the life you want for you and yours.
I think the loneliness and loss and longing for people we have had to leave behind is, in the end, far less than the joy of creating a new life with happy loving people who value and cherish you and your sons.
So, take a step into the future and do what makes you all happy, even for a bit, today.
Many hugs,
ShootingStar1