Hi. I identify with much of your post. I never wanted to look at the fact that alcohol is a taker and not much of a positive giver. When I put my plug in the jug I still had all the negative characteristics and feelings I had when I drank, a void that needed filling positively. These needed honesty to recognize and work on, not bypass as I like to do with difficult projects. To accomplish this I needed flesh meetings with people who understand us and become an active worker on myself with no BS. Far from being perfect I’m comfortable in my skin most of the time, what more can I ask for?