AEMS I am following what you say and thank you so much. i need to get to bed here, (its almost 10pm) but I will write more tomorrow. What you wrote is so true about paying attention to that later on the PAWS, in recovery. I am on day 3 today... read through my threads if you want to know more. Stay strong, and how come you are not willing to quit cold turkey? I always found tapering to play with my head so much, the pills never stopped talking to me, it was always this sick cat and mouse game and the cat always won. I had to rip the band aid off, get sick, and get through it. This is my though. And you are right, when you don't have them the pain is way better!!!! Almost gone!
Talk more in the morning and thanks for writing.