hey Lionheart. you don't ever have to feel this way again, you know? i think getting back with your therapist and getting back to AA is a great start. when you get back to AA, how about you start looking around for a sponsor to work the steps with you? if you're willing to do anything to get and stay sober, be willing to do that. you never, ever, ever have to feel this fear and anxiety ever again. your daughter never has to see you drunk again. you can do it, if you are willing.