Aems,
I understand arthritis and wish you much success on this taper.
Other than for having a hope that you can taper off an opiate, you sound a lot like me.... the arthritis, facing the possibility of having fusions, and struggling with being less active and productive.
At 50, I've been sullenly trying to resign myself to the fact that I'm going to be in pain to a lesser or greater degree for the rest of my life. It's just so hard to accept. Five years ago, I was climbing High Exposure and hiking twelve miles in 90 degree weather without a problem! What has happened to my body?
I want to stop the pain. So, I think of pills. Then, being an addict, I ask myself, is it really the pain that is making me think of using or is my sick head amplifying the pain so that I will use?
