Trying so hard but I'm not working a good program
I call my sponsor everyday without fail. I went to 9 meetings this week. Usually I go to 3 to 4 meetings a week. I called 4 people today. I'm having thoughts of drinking to escape because I am bipolar and depressed and anxious right now. I've done everything possible gone to a meeting and talked to people. I just want to hide under the covers so depressed. I was doing so well a month ago. I just want to not feel like drinking again. I hesitate to reach out to my sponsor because I don't want her to think I am working a bad program. I meet with her once a week and go through the steps. I think I am going to give my sponsor a call right now.