Dee that's exactly it you didn't give yourself the option to drink! That's where I am it's just simple no longer an option. I get to frustrated when I see those day 1 again posts. Not frustrated at the people but frustrated that they allow themselves that option. There have been many times I had wished quitting was an option but my ballot never had that that box to check. The only way I'm ever going to survive this fight is by never ever allowing alcohol to be an option.
The shear magnitude of accepting this can be overwhelming I know it's brought me to toddler meltdown status. But accepting the truth is whst has to be done to get your goals achieved.