visch!-
I truly believe that whatever works for you is great. What you are talking about above is what I refer to as "my beast" and upon separating myself from it I can see that it has no power what so ever to make me do anything. I can think about all kinds of things and not act on them.
I don't believe I have a disease that is powerful I see my beast as having no power. In fact now my beast is little more than a nuisance talking crazy stuff in my head. He may think he is "cunning" or "powerful" but, it really is just rambling on about silly things.
However this is just the way I see it. BE WELL also. Jess