Trading one thing for another?
I'm six months sober today and I am so grateful. To get this far I have had to refuse many invitations to go out, I've refused dinner invitations from friends and have not gone to my family's lake house this summer due to my desire to remain sober. Because of this I have become a bit isolated and now am suffering from social anxiety. Last night I was supposed to go to a fundraiser for an animal rescue organization I volunteer for. It was held at a bar and grill I walked in the door, did not see anyone I knew, saw people drinking, panicked and turned around and left. I'm feeling sad and depressed today because I think I would have had a good time. Am I always going to feel like this? I'm feeling very alone. I attend meetings and enjoy the fellowship but don't feel like I want to exclusively depend on the fellowship. I'm very confused tonight.