I LOVE this thread and thank you LexieCat for your post. I kept a journal and when I weaken in the dark of night which is the time I can start second guessing myself, I pull out my journal and read where I've been and then I'm so thankful for where I am. Nothing is worse than the loneliness of living with someone who is really not emotionally available. I'm so appreciative of the little things of being on my own. And it's wonderful to be able to allow friends into your life. But the biggest pleasure of all has been being able to laugh again and to smile and to feel the weight of the world has lifted from my shoulders.