I do feel jealous of those who can drink "normally". I've gone nearly 5 years now without a drink, but am now in a new relationship with someone who drinks very infrequently - however he is now out drinking with a friend and I feel so jealous and hurt, almost like he is "cheating on me"... and these feelings are blindsiding me and confusing me. I appreciate the honesty of people here and reading about the reminders of what drinking DOES to me, helps me remember that I cannot drink "normally" and all drinking will do is bring me pain. Just not sure how to deal with my jealousy of my boyfriend drinking, so hoping to learn more about how to deal with this.