CR995 I'm going through the same thing just now and it's hard and it's painful. I have that urge to contact but knowit will do no good. I know I make contact to run away from the uncomfortable feeling and guess what the cure is? To feel the feelings. Not an easy thing but its like Lexie says it makes them get sober so if we relate pain to ourselves it helps us to move on and give our own addiction up...addicted to the addict. I just want to send you hugs and say your not alone in this.