Sorry -- didn't mean to be harsh. But you know, sometimes when we're sitting in the middle of it, we don't see it. I sat in the middle of an abusive marriage to an alcoholic and I couldn't understand why the only thing I was looking forward to at age 40 was my husband (who was 15 years older) hopefully dying long before me so I could do what I wanted to with my life. The thought that I had the right to do that regardless of what he wanted, that thought had a really hard time occurring to me.
I needed people from the outside to point out the bleeding obvious to me -- that when I had to turn down a promotion because it involved travel and I did not feel safe leaving my children with their father while I left town, I was in a horrid ****** marriage.
Looking at it now, I don't know how I could not see it. But there it is.
And Anvil is right. What the rest of your life is like -- that is up to you. You have it in you to make it beautiful.