With both drink and depression the obsessive part was me trying to make sence of things and bring about happiness . i think the thoughts were the words and ideas i'd learned by being part of a family and society.
These days i'm not terribly convinced that the idea of i , that the concept of i is flawed as compaired to how the world is as i percieve it , and that thinking isn't therefore an abstraction based upon a flawed concept .
It seems to be the best we've got available untill we can learn how not to think
I kinda just stopped worrying about anything much then ..
Bestwishes, m