It's really up to you to decide if it's a problem or not BoSox. If your drinking doesn't cause any issues with your health or your family, and you can quit at any time without having any repercussions perhaps you aren't an alcoholic.
The fact that you can't seem to control your drinking on the weekends is a red flag to be sure. The fact that it makes you feel bad and you continue to do it anyway also isn't a good sign.
Moderation is impossible for a true alcoholic, and this is a recovery forum, so you won't find anyone advocating it. Many of us have tried again and again to do so, but it never works.
Bottom line, you have to make a choice, and if that choice is sobriety there is a lot of help you can find here on your path. I wish you the best of luck with your decision.