AW I think your post kinda got looked over with the page turning and a few new faces logging on! I hope you are doing ok now? I feel you are ( possibly subconsciously) holding onto some resentment about your husbands work taking you away from your family, and perhaps that is holding you back from settling into your home? You obviously really miss your family, but now you are getting sober you are perfectly placed to make the same commitment to where you live, as you have to your husband. When you get back, how about looking for some night school classes, or joining a local community group? I would suggest specific times to call or Skype family, but to focus on making where you live, the place you want to be. I feel you have been drinking and marking time since you moved, as if in your mind it was temporary. Now is time for acceptance, and jumping in with both feet!