Jess, I'm so sorry about your dog
I have 6 seniors and it is so hard to say goodbye.
I don't really know about the Big Plan too much. I didn't use that program to get sober. I am not a religious person tho. Would you be interested in making a notebook-journal type thing for yourself? That's what I have done and it has been so effective for me. I didn't right off the bat, I did after about the first year or so sober. Made sections and then do some different programs for myself from things I read. For example, I am now doing the 90 days of inspiration by Sheri Hoff. I am also studying Eckart Tolle's "a new earth".
So, it's basically this big book of helpful stuff I've made for myself that supports lifelong sobriety and better living overall.
Just because you don't have a BP done does not mean you should give it up! No way, and getting through the awfulness of the death of your dog sober is wonderful.
Best wishes
